Wondering where my monthly recap is? Well, wonder no more.
I'm here to tell you that month three was..........
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month three was a.....
BUST. NEGATIVE. NOPE. EMPTY UTE ONCE AGAIN.
Sorry to lead you on. Honestly this was the first month that I didn't have some sort of breakdown after all the negative tests. Maybe its the weather. Maybe I'm just finally dulling my emotions after years of dealing with all of this. I did have a bit of hope those first couple months after the surgery, but honestly I just don't know what to think anymore. And yes, before you go all statistics on me, I realize it's only been 3 months of trying (4 actual months after the surgery) and healthy couples can try up to 6 times before becoming pregnant....yada yada yada. I know all the statistics...I just dont understand if I was "fixed" and my tubes were all flushed out wtf is the deal. Also, another 'fact' that kind of blows is that after surgery you are most fertile the first 3 months. womp womp...guess that sucks for me now, too.
So now what? Well, I have a few different scenarios that may or may not play out for next month. I'm not 100% on any of them so I won't bore you with the deets.
Now for some ramblings.....
Something important I want to talk about now is how I am a few weeks away from having a 3 YEAR OLD!!! Oh my geez (as Nate would say). I am so excited to be taking him to ride on the big Thomas the train on his bday. He is going to flip out and I can't wait.
Oh and Mike and I traded in my SUV for an awesome Subaru Legacy GT. I figured, I'm not really going to need all the space that the SUV provides any time soon so I'd rather save and pocket that money. Hello better gas mileage!
Now, a lot of you guys know, have seen, or even have commented on my insane amount of books I go through (check my goodreads link over to the right). Well, this has been my coping mechanism for 2 years now and it works for me. So I read...and listen to music...and play trains with Nate and just live.
Today's post was brought to you today by the musical stylings by:
Oh yea and 3.5 weeks until we see Bruno Mars in concert! Bam!
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