Maybe One Day I'll Have an Upbeat Post...Not Today

Today, I feel numb.

I requested a few tests to be done this month since I still felt like we were missing something. And I'd say that I was right about that.

First test I wanted was another prolactin blood draw. Since the last time it was checked was back in December and I had read that certain factors can mess with the results I wanted to have this rechecked before taking the medicine since the side effects of it were pretty bad. Results in....prolactin is high. So it's not a fluke. I put on my big girl panties and took half a dose of the meds on Sunday and will take the second half tomorrow. Rinse and repeat every week until/if I get pregnant.

Yesterday I had a hysteroscopy done. This checks the inside of my uterus. Doc finds a bunch of spots on my uterus and starts asking me about my periods. When I tell him my periods are super light he looked up my chart and saw that my uterine lining has been really thin the past 3 months. All this coupled with the influx of higher hormone levels he believes my estrogen is low. Next month (if I can get my fsh levels low enough to have an iui next month) they will start me on an estrogen supplement (she mentioned Estrace) for part of the first half of my cycle. So hopefully this will help thicken my lining bc without getting my lining thicker there is no way a baby could implant into my uterus.

Then today I had my sono hsg. Sigh. This test checks my tubes for flow. Right tube...great. Saline flows through my uterus and out my right tube. My left....nope. So I'm working with one tube now. Nurse said its possible to get pregnant with just one tube which is great news but not the news I was hoping to hear. I was hoping that after going through that awful surgery I wouldn't have any more issues with my tubes. Guess the jokes on me.

So lets recap....so far I've been diagnosed with blocked tubes (fixed via lap), high prolactin, low estrogen, high fsh and now left tube blocked.

And the meds I'll be on during my next cycle (as long as my fsh is below 19)...estrace (or something similar), clomid, trigger (hcg) and dostinex.

I've also begun going back to acupuncture in hopes that it can stimulate my body's hormones to start regulating a bit.

Something has gotta give soon. I just don't understand how or why. I eat fine...my weight is normal...I gave up soda...I've decreased my alcohol intake...I take my vitamins. What am I doing wrong?

Now that I'm done with all that I just want to take a minute to say how incredibly loved I have felt the past few days. The kind gestures that have been before me theses past days have brought me to tears over and over again. Never in my life would I have thought nice things would be done for me....esp not bc I am having these infertility issues. Whether it was a gift or a message, I am truly thankful for every person that has thought about me and Mike during these trying times. I wish I could hug and thank each and every one of you.